Okay, so I apologize to those of you who will read this but I just really feel the need to vent right now.
Let me start by saying that it is a daily process to keep myself focused on what is really important in life. My husband and I do make sacrifices so that I can stay at home with our children although with that said we really have not had to sacrifice that much. Sure I can't just go off and spend money on frivolous things whenever I want but I definitely am not suffering in any way. I have plenty of food in my pantry, I have a beautiful house with a large yard, and a nice reliable vehicle. There is no need for me to not be satisfied with what surrounds me yet at times I feel myself longing for the things that others around me have….granite countertops, new, beautiful furniture, a luxury car (which is not a minivan). I do not want to be envious but I find it a personal struggle to truly appreciate and be content with what is in front of me instead of longing for things that are out of my reach.
With that said, I find it a daily struggle to not get caught up with things I read online or most importantly on Facebook. I am tired of hearing people go on about things that have been given to them or they have acquired with no appreciation of what they have or with what other people don't have. The person who finds it appalling that anyone might ever consider buying a minivan but refuses to accept the fact that her car is at least $10,000 more than a minivan. Why not acknowledge how fortunate they are to not have to sacrifice what is important to them. I really wish some people would take a moment to truly appreciate what they have and not feel the need to defend what they have by saying that they "deserve" it. Doesn't everyone deserve to have the things they like. What makes one person more deserving than another. Everyone deserves good food on the table and a comfortable house to live in. Don't we all deserve safety and security. I think we are all guilty for forgetting at times those gifts we have that make our lives complete.
I do not want to be unappreciative of the fact that there are people out there who struggle in other ways. Maybe some people fixate on "things" to fill a void in their lives, an unhappy marriage, poor health, unsatisfied working life. I don't know. And then there are those who have suffered true adversity in their lives, the loss of a child, the loss of a spouse, terminal illness, natural disaster, etc. Shouldn't those of us who are so fortunate to have never experienced such grief and loss be even more appreciative of what we have.
I think I may have gotten off on a tangent but the frustration is the same. I am tired of people using social networking to ultimately make others feel bad about what they don't have or that what they have still isn't good enough. Why can't we just be….be appreciative, be respectful, be open-minded. Why can't I just be content? I admit I am considering closing my Facebook account. I feel that doing so will mean I have failed to be stronger, to be content and accepting. But do I need the daily reminders of what I am supposedly doing "wrong" or that what I have isn't desirable or "good enough". I don't know. I guess this will also be a part of my daily struggle to decide what is best for my spirit and my soul…...